Love Hurt -♥♥♥

Love Hurt, ain't this words familiar to you? I've known some individuals that is afraid to fall in love again because they've hurt so much because of this word, LOVE.

Let me share with you my most hurtful experience with this word called LOVE.

Back in 2005, I've met this girl that I thought she would be the one for me. She is one of the nicest, loving and cutest looking girl that I've met in my whole life. Any of the guys who've seen her will think that she is an angel that dropped from the sky. She accepted me into her life on Feb 21, 2005 :) From that day she came into my life, we gone through a lot of up and down. People says love is blind, and I am definitely blinded at that moment. I gave up my business that my dad invested for me just to be with her and a lots more.

Anyway, due to our immature mindset at that period of time, we often come to misunderstanding which leads to argument.

Me, being the typical guy have my own man-pride/ego which is difficult for her to communicate with.

She, being the shy type of girl always surrender even before the arguement start.

After being through all the hardship and when everyone thought that we would last, disaster happen. I received a rumors that she is having an affair with one of my closest friend, a guy which I respected like a brother (At that time, he has a gf that is with him for 4 yrs+). I confronted both of them if the rumors are true as I don't feel good about it, coz both of them were the people I cared most for that period of time. Both of them told me that nothing happened, in fact she scolded me for not trusting her. The result of the confrontation is me breaking up with her; and not seeing my close friend anymore. 2 yrs+ relationship as easy as that.

The rumors still goes on, and I told those who spread such rumors that it is not true, I've asked them and I believe they won't do such thing to me (I still have that thought until now).

After 3 mths of our break-up, she finally admitted to me that the story was real and she told me the whole thing of what actually happened. The reason why she is telling all these to me now is because she is having problem with my close friend at that period of time and was very confuse.

I listened to her story, on how it happens and all without saying anything bad about it; instead I tried my best to make her feel better by sharing her an ear. After she finished telling me the story, they went back together. I've never "really" heard from her since then, and I've never seen my that friend anymore.

After the incident, I felt so bad and I kept thinking of why it happens ...

• Would it be because I didn't love her enough?
• Was it because I am not loyal to her?
• Is my friend better than me?
• and the list goes on ...

The pain of having to lose 2 person you love and care most at the same period; knowing that they are lying and you are a fool is hurting.

I recovered from the incident pretty fast, and I promised to be a better person. I found a new girl not long after the break-up. Anyhow, thing didn't go well too. I am a person who do not believe in long distant relationship. Therefore, I've asked her if she is going oversea anytime near future? She answered me that earliest would be 2009 or 2010. So, we coupled up on March 17, 2007.

Time past and god is playing trick on me again. She flew off after we've been in a relationship for half a year. I decided to wait for her since the day she flew away, until she told me that she might continue staying in the place she is now for the next 3 to 5 years or perhaps more. I broke up with her after half a yr of waiting. And guess what? She is now back in Malaysia for good. Few months after we broke up.

I've gotten myself into another relationship after that broke up, but I will write about in on my other post.

The main objective I am doing this sharing today is to tell you, my reader(s) that after all these, I still have faith in LOVE. If being in LOVE, is being in PAIN, I rather being in PAIN than not LOVING at all.

So, for those who is afraid to love again, I hope you could give yourself a chance to fall in love again this valentine day.

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